lacking eloquence, but alas lacking sleep

this has been one of those bizarre weeks.
rutgers canceled school on monday and tuesday because of torrential rains and subsequent flooding which took out the commuter roads.
and then the virginia tech shooting was plastered all over the news on monday.
i don't even know how to process such an event. i was just reading about the victims. it's ridiculous. i feel like i could sit here and free-write about things for hours, pages of discussion about stereotypes and loners, and misguided youth and racism and class and religion and gun control, the nation, school policies, lack of protection, administrative irresponsibility, indifference, apathy, international affairs, indecision, charles whitman, collumbine, trenchcoat mafia, korean laundries, 'well when i was in high school...', but what's the point. it's just sad.
i'll throw out the trigger terms here. they're enough sometimes.

i've become bogged down with this political crap way too much as of late. the tide's turning, things are changing and who knows what tomorrow will be like. there are non-monstrous ways of handling problems. i hope we manage to make all of them happen.

i need sleep and a shower. going home now to do both.
ticket office at 12:30, class at 3:55, back to the office until 6:30. study, read, write, etc.
i hope all of you out there are fairing well in wednesdayland. happy wednesday.

ps i finished my artist's statement. go to statement. wooo.
maybe piecing myself together some will help with this mood. regardless, i'm in no mood for celebration.

current state: disheveled

pretty in pink NOT pretty in pink NOT

we all hate molly ringwald

because




"I love my background by the way...[slurrr] [red]" :D - jolly




haha.

bfa thesis 1

thesis thesis thesis
'one'
BFA Thesis Group 1
April 5-13

Opening reception:
Mason Gross Galleries
Civic Square Building
New Brunswick, NJ 08901
April 5
4-7PM



so i figured i should get back to this, at least to document the happenings of today. probably will be a boring post, but bear with me. Our thesis opening was this evening at csb. Mom, Mike, Liz, and Josh all drove down to attend the event; i'm so very glad. I hadn't slept in over 40 hours, not in my bed in over a week but when i finished my work to satisfactory completion an hour before the opening and firewired it to all the emacs, i was elated, and the adrenaline took me easily through the hours of the opening. It flew by. It's over, bizarre. (What do you mean i'm graduating?) The turnout was big, the food excellent (particularly the guac), and I was pleased with all of the interest in the work. Granted, yeah, a bunch of proud parents, but usually I don't see as much emphasis thrown into the work during social events like the opening, and yet there were lines around people's work, around reid's hands, my computers, etc. (see people do like to sit on the floor.) I'd be lying if I were to say I wasn't concerned about the reception of my work. I figured people would see the project, the glowing emacs, and be like 'that's nice' but not spend the time. I should have more faith in people (and perhaps my work). Wine and brie aren't everything, although something (great job party committee).

I just wanted to thank all of the participants in my project--jd, mk, jh, nm, jhw, wp, rb, cc, pg, gh, jr, bc, md, rm, rg, sh, do, ab, mo, au, ep, lc etc etc. This project would have been nothing without you guys, and it's been awesome meeting with you and talking shit out (what an elegant description.) This project was all about you guys and I hope maybe it was of some help to you. I will miss you all dearly in a matter of a month....

let's not talk about that now. Dinner was great, my family is awesome, my friends invaluable, I slept through my own afterparty (thanks maggie and jolly for at least trying to get me up), but it's all not matter. I'm eating m&ms, going to fall asleep to a movie, and get up for the critic coming into the gallery tomorrow.

Oh yeah, for anyone reading this and not in the near vicinity to see the show before the 13th, my project will be available in its entirety online at manderinorange.com/goodriddance. For now, the link goes to my project description and a call for participants. If you feel so inclined, read it, and get back to me if you wish to take part. I'd be happy to help.

Ah, bed. (I can't believe amy thought i was a dummy passed out on the gallery floor)

current music: something great - lcd soundsystem - streamed off of myspace (hard drive too full for acquisition)--so good



good job guys, i'm really proud of us.

PS installation photos galore: