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aaaaaaagggghrrrhhhghhhh

riiiipppppping eyessss ouuutttt

iiiii donnnnn'tttt caaaaaaaare





i thought i deserved a summer.





01:54
i was cranky before. But it smells so nice out here and so much like summer i can't help but feel a whole lot better. even with the flying ants.

:)

good luck, athena.

a bar[r]e[a]t[t]s unite.

weekend=fun

cheryl and diccon's wedding was great. the family had a lot of fun. my mother was one merlot away from dancing around with a lampshade on her head, cutting a rug with my uncle to the sopranos' theme song. unfortunately the der couldn't come through for josh. (always next time.) couldn't have been a better time for cj to meet the family. i learned i no longer have to dance to the flamingoes alone; i can speak publicly even if my stomach is in my throat; and i love my cousin matt that much more.

i also confess that i sold out to apple. i'm now the owner of a 13" macbook and an ipod nano. (what, it was free.)







dear lord, we look like the apple site.

oh well.


2 weeks of school work left. 3 papers in the next 7 days. 3 exams in the next 10. July 8th, my plane leaves from newark for raleigh, nc. i hope greensboro's as nice as it seems.

i miss the final frontier.

I saw two guys walking around on lee's old roof this morning. One was wearing an old 7up "Up Yours" shirt, which made it somewhat less cool, but i still envied them for being that much closer to the moon.




last night i saw 2001: A Space Odyssey for the first time with CJ over at Loree for the NJ Filmfest. Incredible.

Current Music: love for me/ human after all

I lost my cigarettes. I went to Google to search. CJ offered to call them.

Zach is stalking someone with pretty eyes and a lacking filmography on the internet.


sweet-nothings
[sensual voice]

3. I want you in chocolate pudding.

2. She hates existence. She seems particularly picky for someone who only made 4 films.

1. My cat resembles ghandi.




grrr

yay jess rees/ ugh backwardness and other tales

The good:

pepe was running down the street today. he looked over his shoulder at me on the porch and inquired "ou est mon chat?" with a bunch of other accent marks before disappearing under a white honda.

i met three of the neighbors yesterday. 4 stars. i didn't realize we all did the jen park dance.

JESSICA REES WINS THE BEST HOUSEMATE AWARD.
she got up and drove me to class this morning at 10 when i awoke to find it raining too hard to bike to douglass for culture of the 60s.
YAY JESS! :D



The bad and the ugly:

We watched "Mississippi: Is this America? 1962-64" today in class. students murdered, fathers shot in the back. who wouldn't want to cry. why do our history classes in elementary school stop after world war II and cycle back to the native americans all over again? why do they stop with america? it disturbs me that all high school and elementary curriculums cease before any history that has any bearing on today's affairs has a chance to be told, and that i am getting my first honest look at the 1960s (let alone the 70s, 80s, 90s, today) when i am 21 years old.



in other news, i watched United 93 today. Kevin Carr is a moron.

Finally, “United 93” shows the absolute, undeniable evil of terrorists. They walked onto the plane, looked people in the eye and went meticulously through the motions to murder them. Using a plane full of fuel as a massive bomb is far more personal than sitting behind a control panel guiding a smart-bomb to its destination, and it’s not about collateral damage from a bomb that hit a military target during an ongoing conflict.

[The phrase "collateral damage" makes my skin crawl. It makes me think of a mother introducing her children to guests through photos on the mantle as "collateral damage 1, 2 and 3".]

“United 93” is a must see not just for America, but the world. It is easily the best film of the year and one of the most powerful films you’ll see in a long time.

He also really liked Doom, of which he said:

I kept thinking, "Okay, enough talk. Let’s start blowing things up."

Hmm. Pro-video games and military tactics. So, it is less personal to kill at a distance with a smart-bomb and therefore this is...better. ok. uh-huh. I vote for diplomacy, but whatever happened to earning your victories? Backward americans in 1964, backward americans today. There's more isolated than Mississippi here. We can make ourselves hear whatever we want to hear. The history books stop where there wasn't any way left to cover everything we've screwed up.

if i see those towers burning again i'm going to throw up. Or maybe i won't. And that just might be worse.

wonderings

Luke 9:25
For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself?


"That boy's a lot better off in heaven than he is here."
Anne Moody, Coming of Age in Mississippi